Rantings of a Single Mom

The joys, fears and most importantly - Rants of a single mother!

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It's that time

Posted on April 29, 2010 at 10:44 PM Comments comments (6)

Final exams are looming. I have exams on 5/10, 5/12 (at 8 a.m.!), 5/13 and I have a paper due on 5/15.

And in a totally cruel twist of fate, it's also that other time. So between being stressed out about finals

--which stress causes me to stuff my face. Why can't I be like those people who get stressed out and lose 15lbs? Sheesh...

and pms'ing has me really, really wanting to eat. I ate a lot today but tried to keep it very healthy. Lots of protein and fiber (mmmm, fiber), etc. I ate some of my Lindt bite sized truffles -- a great and wondrous invention! A regular Lindt truffle (60% dark chocolate - MMMMMM!) is 70 calories and like 6g fat. And I can eat like 5 of those things before my stomach hurts. The bite sized truffles are about 36 calories and 3g of fat each. So, even though you're still eating around the same # of calories and fat....it's mental trickery.  You get to eat TWO of the bite size truffles!

(This is what happens when you have an unhealthy relationship with food that was masked for many years by a nice, fast metabolism! Damn it 30!)

I'm sleepy. I know I have to get up early tomorrow.  I need to study in the morning. I need to get on campus early to a) do some work in the lab and b) go see my OChem prof. I used to go to his office hours all the time in the beginning of the semester. Somewhere around chapter 6 I slacked off. Mainly cause I didn't give a rats ass about SN2, SN1, E1, and E2 reactions. Well, someone had the bright idea to make all this stuff build on itself...so not knowing that stuff screwed me over big time when it came to chapters 8-10 and I was a complete and utter failure on that midterm exam.

(Has anyone noticed that the dock on the Mac is reflective?)


What's a blog without WEDDING STUFF!?

Do you see the ticker? There are 155 days until I become Mrs. MRS! WOooohooooOO!!!!!! :-D

The save the date's went out Tuesday and the Post Office must be trying to redeem themselves because people starting receiving them today. Shhh, don't tell anyone, but I carry one with me and frequently look at it and get all misty eyed...

My handsome groom (MHG) posted a very funny blog post on our website. He's such a stinker. He "doesn't know HOW long that website has been up" LOL!!! I love his sense of humor. :sigh: he's THE BEST.

I think I'm going to buy my dress this month (well, May). I got my $300 back that I screwed up on last month. First I have to make sure I have a summer job in the bag.

Ahhhh, and I'm obsessed with flowers. And a cake. I like cake. A lot. Cake is yummy & delicious. I don't typically like wedding cakes because they're dry and not yummy & delicious. I decided against traditional oober tiered fondant covered stuff. And MHG loves cake and wants the cake to be GOOD. So I've heard generally positive things about wedding cakes from WalMart Supercenter. I luuuuuuv Sams Club cakes so...Their 3 tiered cake is $138 which isn't bad but I still think that's a lot of money for *cake*. Also, one of the sisters at my mom's Mosque is a baker (baker??). She's asking her about making the cake. Otherwise, I'll get a yummy delicious sheet cake filled with yummy deliciousness and to hell with anyone who complains that it isn't a "wedding cake".

And what's up with this grooms cake? I had never heard of that until recently!? Maybe I'm just clueless. I wonder if MHG will get a grooms cake? Also, who in the hell wants to eat year old frozen cake? Did you?? Just curious....

Calla lilies are my favorite. And their beautiful. And I want to incorporate them.

155 DAYS!


Posted on December 21, 2009 at 10:26 PM Comments comments (1)

Its Monday EVENING! How did this happen?! Where did all my time go?! While I love the little hooligan kids, they were away from home on alternating evenings. Normally I'd appreciate my alone time with them, but this made it really tough on me this weekend. They didn't have each other, leaving me to keep them company. I know that sounds bad! But its just a few days :)

I was up the last 2 nights til around 2. Probably the same tonight, tomorrow night I'll go to bed on time. Physics exam is 8:30 a.m. on Wednesday. Whew. People keep calling me. I've said 713 times that I'm studying for finals. Again, this must hold no significance whatsoever. So I stopped answering my phone. And its not, hey, how's it going? Its listen to my problems or do something for me. NO! I'm not available. And I'm not going for the guilt trip. Too damned bad. I'm getting cranky. Too much sugar, not enough sleep, and the reality that I have like 5 more chapters of Physics and 3 of Chemistry to cover. I just want to go back to the hallway and lie on the floor. ((don't ask. I have a thing for lying on the floor)).  Almost over...

I'm failing physics

Posted on October 30, 2009 at 10:34 PM Comments comments (1)

This sucks. Royally. I received a notice regarding my "academic performance" in Physics. Ugh. I did not need them to tell me I suck at Physics. I KNOW I suck at Physics. And it is a hard pill to swallow. I just cannot grasp it. And get very, very frustrated. And the Physics tutors are so useless. Sigh...I'm going to reall work hard the next 2 weeks to get up to speed. Because if I fail this 3rd test, I'm screwed. Its over. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Anyway, I had a busy day today. Got up early, got juice boxes for M's class. Went to calc, then to meet with my group members for our chem project (those guys are crazy). Then an hour or so of studying (Physics) followed by lunch with a friend. Back to class for chem, then fighting traffic to get my niece and nephew. And 3 times as much traffic to get home. Whew. Chasing behind "the boy", making dinner, running Kese to and from her party. Grocery store, Walgreen's...Today was just a normal day. I mean...sometimes I think about it all and wonder if I'm just crazy. Well, I think we all know the answer to that one.

One of those days

Posted on October 18, 2009 at 9:43 PM Comments comments (1)

I'm not exactly cranky. Not exactly irritated...or in one of my Cancerian moods. However, today wasn't one of my best days. Why? I don't know. Nothing "happened". No stressful event or anything. Noone did anything "to" me. I didn't sleep well, which may have precipated it. I don't know. Whatever it is, I just feel so ... Blah. I guess, somewhere in the rules, its written that we all must have a bad day here & there - I suppose. Maybe its the cycle of overwhemingly busy begets exhaustion begets laziness ... You know...I feel *ok* but then I don't. I made nachos. NACHOS. And didn't have an appetite for them. And now I have some uber-weird crampy pain in my side, out of nowhere.

I decided that tomorrow I'm going to ease back into my workout routine. That generally helps with the pre-winter blahs. Aside from the fact that I've had to negotiate my way into every pair of jeans I've put on this week. I'm going to get a nice, tall, cold glass of water. Wish I had some Pinot Grigio :-)

I own a calendar & know how to count

Posted on October 1, 2009 at 10:12 PM Comments comments (0)

And I'm about as 'regular' as one can be. So, you'd think I'd predict when the evil PMS witch will rear her ugly head. But, nope. I'm always caught off guard. Today was my first 'crappy' day, but I've been ready to snap out on folks the last couple days. Things that would normally not really get to me. Things that would normally make me think 'don't hate' 'you just wish you were in my place, don't you?' 'You're not the boss of me!' LOL! But I was ready to flip out. The fact that everything my kids did this evening (except during family activity time) got on my damn nerves -- clued me in. I put them to bed early, making some tea, and watching Project Runway. Ahhhh