Rantings of a Single Mom

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I'm getting married tomorrow

Posted on October 1, 2010 at 11:36 AM Comments comments (1)
We picked up our marriage license. It was all very quick & painless. Fill out this 1/2 sheet of paper. I'm going to read back what you wrote. I'm going to make a big deal out of characters that aren't perfectly written. I'm going to seat you at the sticky table and come back 7 minutes later with all the same info you just completed -- printed on a green sheet of paper. I'm then going to copy said green sheet, twice, and have you both sign. Bam. Its done. But someone needs to tell me what the $60 is FOR?!? In MN its like a buck 25 and I can't figure out why it costs $125 to get married...I digress. We're getting married!!!!!!!!!!!! In front of our family & friends; we make all sorts of warm & gooey promises to each other. Plus, we get to kiss AND eat cake! This rocks!!

Posting everyday is near impossible

Posted on September 14, 2010 at 11:51 PM Comments comments (2)

My dress is friggin amazing and it's beautiful and I love it and it makes me very happy and bright and glowy and I can't wait to put it on with my veil and shoes and walk down the aisle and marry my sweetheart.

Random movie quotes that keep popping in my head:

"What Seth, you think you're cool with your little Jew fro?" 40 Year Old Virgin

"Somebody wrote in that book that I'm lying about being a virgin because I use super jumbo tampons... but I can't help it if I've got a heavy flow and a wide set vagina..." Mean Girls

"Remember, what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. Except for Herpes. That shit'll come back with you." The Hangover

I'm going to bed now...

I am very sleepy

Posted on September 14, 2010 at 12:08 AM Comments comments (2)

Today I had class until 4:30. Got to the park & ride at a little after 5. Mike and the kids picked me up after attending Shakese's parent meeting for tennis. We headed to Wayzata for MJ's game. They lost terribly - first time they've been shut out in the 3 years they've played. Wayzata's players are all on steroids and MJ made a helluva block early on; but he got hurt and checked out. He missed some really good tackles and got scored on twice because of it. Then home to do homework.

Tomorrow I have class until 2:15 and then Shakese has a tennis match at 3:15 and then MJ has football practice at 6 and then I have to be in Woodbury (40 minutes away) for my dress fitting at 7:30. 

Did I mention that I am sleepy?

And, I hate my calc prof. He doesn't lecture about anything. He's so random. But, there are only 2 lectures this semester and I can't take the other one because of my Bio lab. And I hate bio. I thought talking about sex would make it palatable (LOL!) but it doesn't. It's still biology and biology is stupid. Well, not all of it, but most of it. Well, some of it.

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Posted on September 12, 2010 at 10:29 PM Comments comments (2)

What does one do when they are getting married in just under 20 days!?!? 

They fantasize about married life with their honey. They imagine themselves staring at their doubled-up ring all the time. --ok, not all the time because they are going to be really good and focused on school but...you get the idea. 


Has anyone noticed that Martha Stewart is making 10 times more cash than she did before the insider trading debacle?


Yesterday I had a oddly tough time watching the September 11th program thing. I came in from seeing Toy Story 3 and as soon as I looked at the tv I literally (really) got weak in the knees. I instantly flashed back to that morning. I pulled into the parking lot at work listening to the radio reports that there had been a plane crash in NY. Thoughts were along the lines of, "Wow, that's messed up." and "I mean, the towers are tall, but how in the hell does a plane run into one?!" I went inside and everyone was in the break room watching the news. And then...THEN, I watched the television, wide-eyed, as the other plane crashed into the tower. I was afraid. I knew there was no way there were TWO accidental plane crashes, 20 minutes apart. And when the towers collapsed, oh my goodness. That was a terrifying moment. I (of course) worked like 10 minutes away from home. The kids were home with their dad and I wanted nothing more but to go home and hug my babies. Watching yesterday evoked similar emotion. It's hard to believe it's been 9 years. And I remind myself that God's plan (no matter whether we understand it or not) is always perfect.


I inadvertently bought fat-free coffee creamer last time. I came to the realization today after having some issues. My body doesn't like fake sugar. Weird things happen to me and it's not comfortable at all. I refuse to eat aspartame and sucralose especially. I wish I could escape high fructose corn syrup but that seems near impossible without quadrupling our grocery bill by going organic. I promise, as a chemical engineer, that I will not engineer some odd, likely toxic chemical to help some company make oogads of money while concurrently wrecking the general population in some way. 


Posted on September 12, 2010 at 12:25 AM Comments comments (2)

I haven't blogged in who knows how long. So, its best to make a list :) And, I'm counting down! I'm going to try to post once a day until THEE day, we'll see.


1) School started this week. I heart my Prof for my Chem E course. He chose a textbook and lo & behold - he actually teaches from the book! Its a friggin miracle!! I know what's going on!

2) My Prof for Orgo has a weird accent. I don't know what she's saying sometimes. Plus, the class is in the new ($7.5 Million) building and I think the lecture hall is laid out very weirdly. Its "long". Much better to have a "shorter" room with theater style seating. So, the whiteboard stretches like 50 ft across the room!

3) I'm not going to like MatLab

4) Biology of Sex is too off the chain. Plus, its still bio. I hate bio. And I'm the only brown person in my lab section. There aren't even any Asians, etc! A whole bunch of 19 year old white kids named MacKenzie & Justin...

5) Calc. Oh boy. Why someone would like to learn calculus with a whole bunch of variables is beyond me. What's wrong with one? Single variable calc is a PITA. And the prof is a psychopath.

6) I hate being a hairy monster-type lady. Its not fair. My mom isn't hairy...hell, my dad isn't! But I do remember my mom's mom ALWAYS carrying a razor with her and randomly shaving; I feel her pain. But then...I guess things could be worse. I'd rather be hairy than stupid. I mean, right?? I'm thinking it'd be a helluva lot worse to be dumb. I dunno...

7) My stomach hurts. Today I had coffee, a big ass asiago cheese bagel, some peanut m&m's, popcorn, and a handful of fries from McDonald's. This is the second day I had no real food. Now I'm eyeballing this soda-water mix with the evil eye.

8 ) MJ did awesome at his game today. He got kicked or something in the chest, and I was about ready to clothesline a 10 year old, but he was ok. He played well and he scored the winning TD. Take that Orono! (They totally didn't play St. Louis Park...)

9) Today, the movie theatre guy looked at Shakese as he asked "both kids under 12?". HELL yes! I'm not paying $9 for her!

10) I'm getting married in like a few weeks! Oh my friggin goodness! Wooooohooooooooo!!!

11)Wedding planning is not for me. I like planning (some). I like when people do what they should do. So I don't like planning stuff that I can't control. And people are retarded. And I hope I don't make a dash to the Hennepin County District court in the next few days.

12) I have awesome friends. And they're very prettiful too!

"Some days are for living. Others are for getting through"

Posted on August 30, 2010 at 5:37 PM Comments comments (1)

- Malcolm Forbes

Today was a day for simply surviving. Shakese's bus comes at 7:24 a.m. I set my alarm for 6:30. I jump up, it's 7:22. I don't see Shakese or MJ in the house. By the time I get my bearings, and decide to drive up to the bus stop, MJ is walking up to the front door. WTH? He walked Shakese to the bus stop.

Day starts off with me majorly depressed. I missed the first day. I missed her getting ready. I missed pep talks. I missed making sure she knew her lunch code and bus number. I missed making sure she had her schedule ready. I take the schedule (which was actually copy #2) and a note I'd written. I planned on dropping it in her locker. However...Principal Schmidt wasn't having it. She was pulling the paper out of my hand before I finished my sentence. But *I* wanted to take the schedule to her :(. Ok, so they want to stop overzealous parents from babying the kids maybe? Whatev, I was annoyed. Then MJ went to school way early. I went back to give him his afternoon bus number. 

Then I had to go down to dealing with the folks at the county today. UGH! I hate going down there. Really really hate it. Got home, did my hair, really felt like taking a pair of scissors to it. I'm so over it. Bleh. 

Every year, I bake cupcakes for first day of school. Today I decided to only make a dozen so that I wouldn't want to eat the cupcakes. I didn't have any milk other than skim (which is NOT good for baking) and I only had a few muffin cups. So after Mike and I ran a few errands, I came in to bake the cupcakes. Well...I was becoming agitated and sad some more because it was like 2:30 when I got them in the oven and Shakese's bus was scheduled to get here at 2:56. They wouldn't be ready :(

Sooooo, 2:56 comes and goes. Hmmm. Ok, it is the first day...Then....THEN, the boy who lives across the street comes cutting through the back. 2 minutes later I think, "ok, WHERE is Shakese". 5 minutes later I go ring his bell -- Shakese wasn't on the bus. Huh?

I call the school, they page her, and oh well...she hasn't answered. Huh?

I call Selena, she saw Shakese after school but doesn't know where she is. Huh?

I call Claire, who also rides the bus. Shakese wasn't on the bus. Huh?

I call Erin, "Did you see Shakese today?" She says, "Yes, at lunch, but not since then." Huh?

I call the school back the lady assures me she probably went to a friend's house. Huh?

No the hell she didn't.

I go up to the school. They don't know what to tell me. Huh?

I call a mom I know who has a daughter at the junior high also and whose younger kids are in MJ's class. Andrayah hasn't seen Shakese either. Huh?

The office calls the bus company to try to find out if any kids got on the wrong bus. They only showed 1 from Meadowbrook. She can't get through to dispatch. Huh?

She says...you can call Minnetonka PD.


Now, I'm freaking out. I'm crying. I'm losing my effing mind. 

I call Mike and ask him to come back because I'm losing it. 

I pick up the phone and get through to dispatch right away. Shakese was on the wrong bus. The bus driver has to complete his route and then he can bring her home. 

I'm exhausted. My brain is fried. I think tonight will be an early one for me.

Growing up is hard to do

Posted on August 19, 2010 at 10:48 AM Comments comments (0)

So, everyone in the free world is probably acutely aware of the fact that Shakese begins junior high this fall. Yes, theoretically, I knew this day would come. But...

I remember going to Curtis elem. and having them talk to my parents about how "bright" I was. I remember them oohing and ahhing over my Iowa test scores (hahaha! remember the Iowa tests?!?). I remember starting junior high. I remember the awkwardness of it all. Being the little fish in the big pond. Being majorly exposed to girls and their evil, catty ways (why, WHY?!?!? and WHERE?!?!? do girls learn this behavior?!). 

So, apparently, to begin 7th grade you need a tetanus booster. They kept saying chickenpox too but I am always on top of doctor/dentist appts for us and couldn't believe she wasn't up to date. Well, she was, I just hadn't updated the school (SO?!). Because she's also, err, officially 'in transition' to womanhood (this saves the almost-dad any stress; I think), they wanted to check iron levels too. Cue the finger poke. O.M.G. I was cringing. I hate shots. I hate needles with a burning passion. And, the chick didn't even coax her into it! I don't know if it's because Shakese was bigger than she was or what, but she just grabbed her damn finger and BAM! Shakese looked like she'd gotten shot! Poor baby. And I know that the tetanus shots hurt like a mofo too so I held her hand and tried to get her to stop looking at the lady; but still she cried. And once again, she was like 8 months old. She really is just a baby. Never mind that she's 65 1/2 inches tall (WTF?). 

Oh wait, she is in the 97th percentile for height and the 50th for weight. And get this........the 25th for BMI! LOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!

I picked up her school schedule (SCHEDULE!). They have this retarded set up of A/B days. And it rotates each week. So one week M, W, F are 'A' days and the next week M, W, F are 'B' days. Foolishness. This first quarter she has:

1st period: French (A); Pre-algebra (B)


2nd period: English (A); Social Studies (B)

3rd period: Study (A); Cadet band (B)

4th period: Family & Consumer Science (A); Science (B)

Yesterday she had WEB (we all belong) day where she got hooked up with a 9th grade buddy who showed her around. She was able to meet the kids that will be in Homebase with her (she knows like half of them).  

Soon, the day will come when I'll be dropping her off to college; It's not too far off...


We mailed out like 60 invites for a total of about 150 people. After having to explain to several people that their "1" means just them; not an additional guest. And that no, they can't invite Cousin Fill-in-the-Blank. And that no, we don't know who else is driving...My cousin invited his mother (related to my father via marriage and who I have NO relationship with); but I decided not to fuss because their 2 oldest kids will be away at college so we're still -1 for their family. My aunt invited her daughter and 3 grandkids which I haven't said anything yet because that came through the grapevine; I will be calling her tonight. My uncle sent back a blank reply card but wrote his phone number on it. :-) And a friend who is getting married in September (!) didn't reply yet chided me yesterday about not returning my card yet to their wedding (!). Their rsvp date is like Sept 1. I was purposely holding it to see if they would rsvp on time for mine! That's wrong, I know :-O


We have 63 confirmed guests (+ our family of 6). This makes me pretty happy. There are maybe 8-10 that are almost certain to be "yes's". We wanted under 75 and I was secretly hoping for closer to 50-55. We've contacted some people twice with not response either way, so we added to them to the not attending list. We still plan on sending our "Sorry you can't make it!" email next week. We have to place our food order by September 1st dammit!

Shakese was sooooo excited to see all of the random craft related tools I've acquired this summer. We have one project done and a couple more underway. Plus she's all about folding the cootie catchers :)

Bridal extravanganzaaaaa was this past weekend and it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have good people. Some people have no people, or sucky people. And I, *ME*, I have amazing people!!!!!

Spontaneous Combustion

Posted on August 9, 2010 at 10:09 PM Comments comments (1)

Don't ask...ok...from the first time I learned the term & what it meant, I was fascinated. 

Anyway, I've spontaneously cried like 7 times. I hate estrogen. Eve is a witch. There's no good reason for a somewhat reasonable woman to become a retarded mound of mangled emotions nearly EVERY 28 days. Stupid as hell.


I've come up with several fun (at least to me), cute (at least to me), ideas for the wedding. And most for the cost of paper & ink. Ok, so ink isn't cheap, but still. When I started the wedding planning, it was a shock to find out the prices people pay for things. So then it came to be all about the craftiness of it all. Its not "oh, I *have* to do that" its "oh, that's going to be FUN to make!" :) I love being creative and it's one of the things that has been severely stifled since I've been a mom. Hey, I'm not blaming the kids, just that what you WANT to do and what you NEED to do really don't add up MOST of the time (which is probably true of adulthood period)...

And I like having fun! I don't have a stuffy bone in my body & there's no way I could pull of a formal wedding ;-) I'm excited!


I've been meaning to blog about all the celebs that I dislike. Leading the list, through no fault of her own, is Zoe Saldana. I liked her when she first debuted. I don't think she's a bad actress (though she's starting to become Jen Aniston). But I'm so annoyed that she's the IT "black actress". Her ass isn't black! I love my latino/a peoples but maaaaan. She's gotten a ton of roles cast for a black woman. May we please put a black woman in SOME of these roles?!??

Jen Aniston? Please. Stop. If I see one more whiny-ass date movie starring her, I'm going to slit my wrists. Gabrielle Union - ugh.

Jennifer Love Hewitt has a big ass forhead and is generally irritating.

Tom Cruise dude, you're a leprechaun.

Ben Affleck, I will jump off a bridge before I watch a movie with him in it.

I know there are many more but that's it...for now...

EEEEK! It's August!

Posted on August 6, 2010 at 7:39 PM Comments comments (2)

Sooooo, my summer program is almost done. This bittersweet.

1) I'm lazy now. I haven't worked a 40 hour week in over 2 years.

2) It's been a really positive experience overall.

Today I had my exit meeting with the program director. After talking and him (again) mentioning how BIG of a deal it was the way Tim talks about me, I mentioned that I'd applied for the REU program at U of I a couple of years ago but didn't make it in because of a lack of research experience. Well, he informed me that he has a relationship with the head of every MRSEC program in the country and told me to let him know where I want to go next summer.

REU (Research Experience for Undergraduates) - program at almost every institution involved in some kind of research; not science specific.

MRSEC (Materials Research, Science, & Engineering Centers) - Science specific and housed within about 30 colleges or so across the nation, including MIT, Yale, Harvard, Princeton, Cornell, Columbia... YOWZERS!!!

"Come and see me and let me know where you want to go". Connections. That's what it's about and I'm forming them left and right.

Then I met with Tim to present. He only had minor changes he wanted me to make and enthusiastically informed me that the group would attend my presentation on Tuesday. Yay me! LOL! :)

Shakese's school keeps sending stuff here and emailing me and stuff reminding me that 1) she's totally going to Jr High and 2) I'm going to be spending a lot of cash. I miss those hooligan kids! The longest I've been away from them before this summer was 2 weeks. It has definitely been an experience. For them because for a chunk of the summer there were 10 kids in the house including them. Stress cases. For me because as much as I try to maintain "Kisha", so much of my identity is wrapped up them. It's crazy. But they'll be home next week and ready to start school in 2 weeks. Which gives me a week of freeeeedom! Oh, and Kese gets out of school like an hour sooner than MJ. WTH? Sheesh.

I am preparing to go into uber beast mode this semester. I have to. With a better gpa, and all my summer research, and glowing letters of recommendation; I should be a shoe-in for someone's program!

The ladies were in town and we had the most awesomest 2 days ever!

We have all sorts of stuff that now require a wedding. We have to have a wedding!!! We have to I say! We are still very much within the original budget. We have like 35 confirmed guests (of like 145 or so), and I'm so excited to be able to harass people a) at the bridal shower and b) on August 16th.

DUDE!?!?!!!!!!! Are you friggin coming or not?!?!??????

67 Days

Posted on July 27, 2010 at 2:48 PM Comments comments (2)

Today is one of those days. Today, I can focus on nothing else, besides getting married.


Not the wedding. Not the pretty dress, or the cake (mmmm. cake. - ok, wait, I'm being serious!), or the lake/mountain views. I'm excited to gather with loved ones, to laugh & have fun. But, I'm deep-down to my core, ecstatic about marrying the man that I love. I have no misconceptions of the requirements to maintain a successful marriage. I don't think its going to be a cakewalk 24/7...365. But I *know* that we have what it takes to make it. And I'm ready. I'm ready!! I've spent many, many more months than the past 17 preparing for this. I've screwed up royally, fallen, dusted myself off, written myself off, restored faith in my own abilties...I've questioned, listened, analyzed...I've prayed, I've listened (listening is important). And I'm here; and ready for "me" to become "we".

The beginning is almost here. 67 days!